Went to state for speaking and video production. Didn’t even qualify for finals. And I just watched everyone get their plaques and awards for winning… I didn’t win because I was t good enough. I don’t been know why the fuck I thought I could win… There’s nothing that I can do well anyway. So fuck it. My parents are right. I’m just a mediocre student that is gonna grow up to be a loser and a fuck up. I hate everything I am.